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Lots of things to write about.
We eventually made it to Bloomington last Wednesday and I had my appointment. Strong heartbeat. No way to tell if the placenta is really in the front unless we have an ultrasound, but I still suspect that that's where it is for now. Our midwife had an extremely busy week (3 babies in 2 days, I think), so I am very thankful to her for being able to squeeze us in!
I've spent a majority of the past week at my parents' house. Thank you, thank you, thank you to them. I need to get over my anxiety of being alone with Duncan for extended periods of time. I just need to do it. We are stuck in the house tomorrow, so it will be good practice.
It's just within the past 3 or 4 days that I suddenly feel huge. I feel achy and have to change positions often. I am not liking this. Not that I'm complaining about the actual physical things ... but just the fact that I am feeling this way already terrifies me because I have at least 18 weeks to go. If I feel this way now, I fear that I may not be able to move 3 months from now. I am feeling the baby more and more each day, but only when I am sitting still. Eric and I both felt it from the outside on Friday. That was exciting! Last night I dreamed that we were having a girl.
I have been imagining my 'next birth' almost since right after Duncan was born ... in fact, I'm pretty sure that I had the thought in the hospital: "I totally could have done that at home." Maybe I'm making that up. I don't know. The closer I get, though, the more I am realizing how important it is going to be to have absolutely no expectations. My ideal labor and delivery is at home (lasts less than 24 hours and with no tears, but let's not get picky), but I will not let myself feel like a failure if this baby or my body have different plans. I am embracing this pregnancy as much as I can, and will do the same when the baby decides to make his/her appearance.
I can't deny that I am so excited, though ... for everything. Yes, I am excited for labor and all that comes with it; I am excited for transition; and I am excited for pushing. I am anxious about what is to come, but I am not fearful. And regardless of where all of these events will take place, I am most excited to welcome another baby into our family. I am looking forward to being a family of four, even though I know it will be difficult at times.
On that note, please send good thoughts and vibes, prayers, whatever, etc. to all those people traveling tomorrow ... looking forward to everyone be in Louisville, safe and sound.
We eventually made it to Bloomington last Wednesday and I had my appointment. Strong heartbeat. No way to tell if the placenta is really in the front unless we have an ultrasound, but I still suspect that that's where it is for now. Our midwife had an extremely busy week (3 babies in 2 days, I think), so I am very thankful to her for being able to squeeze us in!
I've spent a majority of the past week at my parents' house. Thank you, thank you, thank you to them. I need to get over my anxiety of being alone with Duncan for extended periods of time. I just need to do it. We are stuck in the house tomorrow, so it will be good practice.
It's just within the past 3 or 4 days that I suddenly feel huge. I feel achy and have to change positions often. I am not liking this. Not that I'm complaining about the actual physical things ... but just the fact that I am feeling this way already terrifies me because I have at least 18 weeks to go. If I feel this way now, I fear that I may not be able to move 3 months from now. I am feeling the baby more and more each day, but only when I am sitting still. Eric and I both felt it from the outside on Friday. That was exciting! Last night I dreamed that we were having a girl.
I have been imagining my 'next birth' almost since right after Duncan was born ... in fact, I'm pretty sure that I had the thought in the hospital: "I totally could have done that at home." Maybe I'm making that up. I don't know. The closer I get, though, the more I am realizing how important it is going to be to have absolutely no expectations. My ideal labor and delivery is at home (lasts less than 24 hours and with no tears, but let's not get picky), but I will not let myself feel like a failure if this baby or my body have different plans. I am embracing this pregnancy as much as I can, and will do the same when the baby decides to make his/her appearance.
I can't deny that I am so excited, though ... for everything. Yes, I am excited for labor and all that comes with it; I am excited for transition; and I am excited for pushing. I am anxious about what is to come, but I am not fearful. And regardless of where all of these events will take place, I am most excited to welcome another baby into our family. I am looking forward to being a family of four, even though I know it will be difficult at times.
On that note, please send good thoughts and vibes, prayers, whatever, etc. to all those people traveling tomorrow ... looking forward to everyone be in Louisville, safe and sound.
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