August 14
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I was talking with a friend a few weeks ago about this blog - about how it has evolved from a blog about sustainable living to one about how to sustain myself as a mother and as a woman. Such an interesting thing that has happened. I am constantly working on myself, figuring out how to be the best "me" that I can be ... Not necessarily how to be a "better mother" or a "better friend," but I mean finding the me that I am meant to be and embracing her wholeheartedly. Feeling empowered and proud of who I am - not questioning every single thing that I say and do. This work is hard and takes a lot of time, but you have to start somewhere.
The last one is a meditation that I've saved as the background on my phone. I read it as often as I can.
For now, after this "life update," this blog is going to be a sort of gratitude journal. I saw a quote yesterday that said something like: "Gratefulness doesn't come from finding happiness; happiness comes from finding gratefulness." How true. I am working on being happy with what I have ... While at the same time, trying to be content with the fact that I'm still working toward other things. People ask me why I want to move. They say, "The grass is always greener!" While that's true, I won't know until I try, will I? The Highlands have appealed for me for over 8 years now, and I'm not going to let that go. Life is too short to spend it where you don't want to be. I do love our house, but it's too big and I want to be in the Highlands. I will not feel sorry for that. Finding a balance between where I want to be (not just physically) and being grateful with what I have is proving difficult ...
Today was far from a perfect day - though who ever has a perfect day? Eric and I were not the most patient parents. Whose dumb idea was it to take the kids to the mall? Haha, that would be me. However, bedtimes almost always go well, and we are super thankful for that.
Gertie will be 15 weeks tomorrow! She is turning into a wonderful dog ... Our real training classes should start the week of September 10, and will last 8 weeks. I need to take some pictures of her! She is all black, though, and she's hard to see. Duncan is wonderful with her. Violet is still scared the dog will "chase her," and wishes that Gertie was "already trained," but all in good time. She is doing very well, considering her experience with the Bassett house puppies last year. She was terrified!
Today I am 8 weeks and 2 days pregnant with surro baby #2. Not a sibling for Gustave - this is for an amazing couple from NYC, a man and woman. I feel nauseated and fat all the time. Still, I remain grateful that my body is awesome and I can grow life. The baby is due in March.
Working hard to make Parent Pillar awesome at school. I am so excited for this upcoming school year. Speaking of school, this Wednesday is Back to School Night, Friday is Drop By Day, and Duncan's first day is next Tuesday. Violet starts next Wednesday.
My mom had her hip replaced last Monday. She is doing well and is, I'm sure, looking forward to things being back to normal. We all hope that her hip pain will be completely gone.
I am super grateful for this awesome keyboard/case that we bought for the iPad today, which allows me to type "stream of consciousness" much more quickly than without one.
Other things to be grateful for today ... Eric (which never changes because he is so wonderful, even when I'm being needy and annoying), our beautiful children, rain, and bug repellent. Relief from the heat, even if it is brief, and this blanket, which is just the perfect weight and texture. The Olympics! One of my happy places, even if it results in us watching more tv in two weeks than we honestly watch in a whole year.
Below are pictures from the summer.
The last one is a meditation that I've saved as the background on my phone. I read it as often as I can.
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