Sustainable Mommy

We talked about jobs, families, eating and exercise, boyfriends and marriage, old friends, growing up, and about where they live. 

For several years I've thought about these friends and how awesome they are, and about their upbringing. I've thought that if my kids can turn out even a little bit like these women then that would be awesome. A few times yesterday the kids argued or misbehaved ... It was a little embarrassing. I know they're only 6 and 4, but embarrassing, nonetheless (though I have to say that they were perfect at breakfast). After one of our little arguments with the kids, I asked my friends, "Did your parents ever yell when you were kids?" Without hesitation, they both shook their heads and said, "No, never." 

Sigh. I must work on this. I must conquer my frustration and anger. If there's one part of my life with which I do not feel content, it's that. Being a gentle, compassionate, thoughtful parent. When I get irritated with the kids, I almost act like a kid myself. It's not good and I feel guilty and terrible about it. 

If we were perfect at everything, though, life would be boring, so working on myself keeps things exciting. At least I have more time to work on myself now ...that's a relief on its own. 

Staying home today. Working on the house. Maybe making some Christmas ornaments. We are going to have a Christmas tree decorated with homemade ornaments this year (and the regular lights, of course). Dried fruit, cinnamon ornaments, pinecones, all that fun stuff. 

The kids have been awake since 6. Now they are downstairs getting themselves breakfast. They argue less in the mornings when they're rested, I guess.