August 17
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I don't like who I am these days.
I've grown apart from some friends and I miss them terribly. Can I blame it on the kids? I shouldn't. I only blame myself for being lazy.
I enjoy spending time with the friends I do have now, but I don't feel close to them at all. Is it me? Do I subconsciously keep people "out" of my life? I miss having close friends (in town) that I can call for anything.
I am way too judgmental and I don't want to be. How do I fix this?
I know how to eat right, but I can't make myself do it. I feel like such a hypocrite.
I think I might be pregnant. Eric's vasectomy is scheduled for the 28th. Even though this baby would not be planned, I'm still going to be devastated if it turns out I'm not pregnant. As a result of all this, I'm an emotional wreck and something needs to give. Quickly.
Duncan starts school on Wednesday! He makes funny faces a lot and tells me I'm awful almost daily. Violet whines 75% of the day, and does not stop when I pick her up.
The only saving grace is that it's Friday.
I've grown apart from some friends and I miss them terribly. Can I blame it on the kids? I shouldn't. I only blame myself for being lazy.
I enjoy spending time with the friends I do have now, but I don't feel close to them at all. Is it me? Do I subconsciously keep people "out" of my life? I miss having close friends (in town) that I can call for anything.
I am way too judgmental and I don't want to be. How do I fix this?
I know how to eat right, but I can't make myself do it. I feel like such a hypocrite.
I think I might be pregnant. Eric's vasectomy is scheduled for the 28th. Even though this baby would not be planned, I'm still going to be devastated if it turns out I'm not pregnant. As a result of all this, I'm an emotional wreck and something needs to give. Quickly.
Duncan starts school on Wednesday! He makes funny faces a lot and tells me I'm awful almost daily. Violet whines 75% of the day, and does not stop when I pick her up.
The only saving grace is that it's Friday.
2 Observations or Opinions:
*hugs*
Feeling a little funky too. I keep cutting things out to try to make more time for hobbies but it still seems like there's no time for things that I WANT to do, just the things I MUST do.
I think everyone knows how to eat healthy and doesn't and it doesn't make you a hypocrite. It's all about balance. I feel like I read somewhere that by if the only organic produce you bought was the dirty dozen items you'd cut your pesticide exposure by 90%. It's the little things. Ex: Ben & Jerry's Mint Chocolate Chip ice cream not having artificial dyes makes it an acceptable dinner. Right?
I keep meaning to see if you'd like to go get lunch or dinner or coffee or come over and let the kids run around. Call me if you want to hang out! I'll see you on Monday since I'm hopefully finally going to a doTERRA class!
Its hard to strike a balance between being everything to everyone including yourself! I'm feeling that way lately too. Since moving I've made friends, but not good ones (yet) that I can call if I need something. But it sounds like you have a lot going on - maybe just some down time? Easier said than done though - I know I can't find any. There's always something to do or someone who needs something. My number two has been super whiny and clingy lately which is also hard! (Unfortunately, no advice, but can relate!)
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