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I'm sitting here by myself watching the wedding video. It makes me so happy, but so sad at the same time. I feel like I have gone backwards emotionally since we got married. I feel like I am never happy, and I know that it's all in my head. I have EVERYTHING to be happy about - wonderful husband, beautiful house, great friends and family, I'm fairly skinny (for the moment), and we are relatively comfortable. It's just those 8 hours a day when I'm at work that are ruining everything for me. I can't get it out of my mind and I'm always worrying about the next day. What is WRONG with me?
Find what makes you happy and do it ... but what makes me happy? My husband. My family and friends. Learning and reading. Other than that, I don't know. I don't love feeling stressed (who does?) or worrying about every damn thing. I guess I really am a Foley for the rest of my life - on the inside, at least. I can't just go to work and do it and then leave everything there when I'm gone. It doesn't matter what I do, I feel ... unhappy. Help me.
I went back to ValuMarket on Monday to visit. I miss everyone there so much. Sara said that I can always go back, and the offer still stands from before. I can pick my hours and days off and they'll give me the same pay as Pie Kitchen. Should I go? My heart tells me yes ... my brain tells me I'm officially nuts.
Any suggestions?
Wahoo for Thunder Over Louisville this weekend.
Find what makes you happy and do it ... but what makes me happy? My husband. My family and friends. Learning and reading. Other than that, I don't know. I don't love feeling stressed (who does?) or worrying about every damn thing. I guess I really am a Foley for the rest of my life - on the inside, at least. I can't just go to work and do it and then leave everything there when I'm gone. It doesn't matter what I do, I feel ... unhappy. Help me.
I went back to ValuMarket on Monday to visit. I miss everyone there so much. Sara said that I can always go back, and the offer still stands from before. I can pick my hours and days off and they'll give me the same pay as Pie Kitchen. Should I go? My heart tells me yes ... my brain tells me I'm officially nuts.
Any suggestions?
Wahoo for Thunder Over Louisville this weekend.
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I have to tell you that it is very hard to have a career in what you want to do. My dream job would honestly still be to either work in a museum, be a tour guide for foreign travel groups, or write for a travel magazine. However, this will probably never happen because I don't have connections, etc.
I say to do what feels comfortable for you. To be honest, I would the happiest if I lived in Louisville, even if I had a crappy job. My philosophy is that it doesn't really matter what you do at work, but outside of it. You do not have to be defined by what you do or by your salary. My salary is small compared to most and I don't want to be defined by my job title. Yes, I merely work at a bank, but I feel I am much smarter than what my job demands of me. I believe that it is the same with you.
Anyway, good luck with your decision. And also, I do not believe that most people are completely satisfied or happy with their lives either, even the most wealthy or successful people. However, in my eyes, you are very successful and blessed.
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